I hate this part of the semester. This is the part of the semester when I realize how much of a failure I am. And its sad, because I always blame other things, like I'm not smart or I dont get math but truth is I'm a slacker. I know I'm smart, not a genius, no, but I'm smarter then this. I could get straight A's if I tried, but thing is I don't. And I don't know why, but I can't bring myself to stop. My English teacher told me today I'm one of the most talent writers she had in the class and the my writing was so charming... but I needed to turn my work in. I think I'm getting a C, hopefully, she gives me a B-. I could have an A soo easily, but know, I'm dumb and I procrastinate, and waste my life. I don't know why... I just do. Now I'm in my Math 50 for the second time and my chances that I'll take it a third time or higher then I like. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being this way. Maybe this is the way an alcoholic feels when they can't stop drinking. I know that seems extreme but that's how it feels. It's practically programmed in me. I really need to get my act together. I always say that. But it never happens...
~Marcy Elaine
oh Marcy, I am so sorry. that is one of the worst feelings. I'm in the same boat as you, I bombed this semester. and you're not being extreme. its just a comparison. I get what you're saying. I guess my impute is to just...bust your BUTT next semester. yes, you've been saying that. but now I'M in on it. let's keep each other on our toes, yes? that's what best friends are for, right? to shove what you're avoiding in your face so you don't do anything stupid? haha I love you, girly :) I know your smart. I KNOW you are. but I also know that that has been a problem for you. so let's fix it together.
ReplyDeletethanks ash ash c: yes, let's help each other out :)
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