But I just have to say something. Real quick, won't take too long.
So once upon a time I dated this guy. And we will refer to him as K.F.F. I really shouldn't have, I wasn't happy with him. At about the halfway point in our odd relationship, he went on a trip to New York for a week. And I texted him every day, telling him that I hoped he was having a good time, or to say good night, or good morning, or just to say 'I love you..' I had honestly kinda hoped he would call me, at least once or twice. Since we had been together for 3 months or so, I guess I just expected something like that to happen. It was the first time we were that far away from each other.
Well, he didn't call. He didn't text me back, either. But I knew he had his phone on him, because on his facebook, there were all these mobile updates and uploaded pictures from his fancy little android. At first I made up excuses, like maybe he didn't reply because he was flying, and the flight attendant told every to "please be considerate and turn off your cellular phones for take off." Or maybe he was just talking with his brother and didn't want to reply right that minute.
But do you understand how blasted easy it is to just text your girlfriend at the end of the day, before you go to sleep, to say good night I love you? It's pretty simple. Just saying. So he didn't talk to me at all that entire week that he was gone and I was just dying inside. I remember I cried that Sunday, because I didn't even know when he was coming back. That's how little we were communicating. But don't worry, the minute he pulled up to my house the next day, I was over it.
I was so pathetic.
The end.
So now I have another boyfriend. S.R.E. And he is debatably the most amazing guy I've ever been with. I could go on and on about him. But for right now, I won't. Because he's bugging me. Because he went down to SUU for the weekend, where he went to school for a semester or so last year, for a ballroom invitational. And I am happy for him. that he's going and seeing his old friends and having a good time dancing, doing what he loves to do. I'm. Happy. For. Him.
OK?!
And we've been texting, and talking, and he said he would call me last night. And I kept my phone on my person the entire night last night waiting for him to call. And then at 11:32 he texted me good night. And...I mean, I'm sorry, I feel like such a sucky girlfriend right now for letting that bug me so much, but it just did. Is that ridiculous?
I don't even know when he's getting back in town.
And I don't want to be that girlfriend that calls him when he's in the middle of having an awesome time with all of his college friends and then he's like "Oh, sorry guys, my girlfriend's calling. Just gimme a minute." No. I don't want to be that girl.
But I do want to be the girl that gets a call from her boy, and he's with all his friends, and he says "Hey guys, just gimme a minute, I'm gonna call my girl."
Marcy, am I stupid right now?
I wrote an awesome comment and it went poof :I
ReplyDeleteYou're not being stupid, not at all Ashlynne. I remember Garrett promised to call me one day and he never did. But you know what, he called me the next day and apologized like his life depended on it haha. And maybe S isn't going to call, I can't tell you that but I know when he is back, you will now that he thought about you. That he actually does care. Boys forget (their brains are literally still developing haha) It happens. Because he forgot to call doesn't mean he forgot or is trying to forget about you. I know you've have been in a bad relationship so you worried, but you and I both know, this is not that relationship. Just take a step back, take a deep breath and think of how little this is going to matter in the future. And while he might not be seeing "I'm gonna call my girl." but I can tell you he is probably talking about you, bragging that he can call this amazingly beautiful, kind, caring, and down right awesome woman his girl c:
And I don't know why it posted my name as about us but oh well, you know its me
ReplyDeleteMarcy I love you X) this blog was such a good idea lol out of all three people I've complained to, my mom and Kate, you're the only one that actually made me feel better. THANK YOU :) Gosh, I don't know what I would do without you!
ReplyDeletehaha, I'm so glad I could help c: I don't know what I would do without you either chicka, even if you don't see it all the time
Deletethat's weird, it posts you as 'about us', and me as 'foxy in college'. My mind is confused
ReplyDeleteI'll figure it out
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